I'm not at my best right now. I've been putting my mind and energy into so many things lately that I feel I'm at a creative pause. I can't focus on writing new material, I can't focus on my academic life, I can't focus on my personal life too much, and just like many of you, I'm in a phase of almost feeling everything and nothing at once. The more I've been opening up to people about where my emotions and mindset have been, the more people have been admitting that they aren't in their best energy either. I think we've all been using a lot of this extra time at home to find new hobbies, entertainment, and reworking our habits. However, we haven't really spoken about the difference between learning how to take rest and learning how to delay feeling the actual stress, emotions, and weight of our lives. We've been distracting ourselves the best we can and then turn around to face our responsibilities, then wonder why we're so exhausted when it catches up. I wanted to create this post today because I realize many of you need someone to tell you that it's okay. It's okay if you aren't as motivated as you used to be and it takes you a little longer to get things finished, as long as it's done within time and to the best of your ability then you are doing well. It doesn't matter if it takes you a few hours or a few days or even a few weeks. It's okay if you're unsure about your future. We've been convinced that what we see as success and happiness is true, but we're still in the process of reminding people that what we see about an individual is not the same as what that person emotionally is going through or mentally dealing with in their reality. Every obstacle is different for each person. Whatever you are worrying about is valid, but please remember that it's okay to take the necessary pause to collect yourself and get back to the work later. It is okay if you are struggling to be motivated, creative, passionate, positive, or even calm. It's not always easy for people to relax just like it's not always easy for people to work. We are collectively going through the waves of emotions, exhaustion, and uncertainty. You are not alone and I hope you have someone to speak to about this energy and if you do not then I hope something on one of my many sites can give you comfort. Hopefully, I'll be seeing a lot of you soon.
Stay safe, stay healthy, and be as kind as you can.